After a day of roaming around town, yes, again~ Life’s like that for me everyday. Now, that’s the main reason why I can’t get my study done. Uhh!!
My mum, loves to scare me whenever I drive. When I’m like driving peacefully, she’ll grab me from the side out of a sudden, just because the car next to us comes to close to us, for the other way round. Whoa whoa~ good thing I have a strong heart I tell you. Haha. But hey, I’m in good control every time when I drive. And that’s what drivers have to do. Confident and stay in control. I’ve been reminding yorshee about that many times. Hahas~ You just need drive more ;) and you’ll get a hang of it. Then it’s your turn to come and fetch me. You promised, remember? ABU or AUDI, doesn’t matter. Of course you know what I prefer. Hehe~
Okay, then when I reach home, feeling totally exhausted, I decided to do some work outs. The first thought of it was like “oh no, it’s today again!!” Nevertheless, ricky has a great determination =) But I was feeling great after it. Yup. Guess what after that? My body began to dance to this very song on the radio. Can you believe it? Music-sensitive, I really am. Haha~ well, after a stressful day, hitting the roads, and knowing more is to come, it’s good to shake my body a bit.
Jenny - by The Click Five
Happy song? Sad song? I don’t know. It managed to cheer me up somehow. Was pretty high at that moment actually, moving from head to toe. But as I listened to the lyrics, it just stirred up some feelings in me. Well, doesn’t it? I put on a smile.
Well, there are thoughts that I feel like expressing initially. But I don’t know… this song just manage to put them aside for now. It’s a good change to the mood in me and for my blog, for now.
And again, I find myself nodding to the beat.
♥ No greater love than this.2 x 11:56 AM
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Here I am, at my second home – Jusco shopping mall. Sipping that chocolate milk shake at Macs. Hope it helps in making me feel happier since I’m alone here. And this is what yorshee said to me on msn, “they put chicken fats in those things!!!. “and you don’t see the blobs of fat floating in the shake” she continued. Haha~ *roll eyes* I don’t care, it just tastes so good. Very good. Well, of course there can’t be fats in it, but chocolate, shake, eh~ not really that healthy, I admit. I’m sorry for my poor body, for feeding you with this. But hey, just take pleasure in it first and we’ll do workouts later in the day when we’re back home okay? Yup yup.
The reason why I didn’t ask for a company is because I intend to study over here. What else? For my exams. Hmm~ 11 February. Lets see…13 days more to go. Argh. That’s just two more weeks! Oh no, I just realised. I feel like hitting my head. Goodness. I haven’t been studying for months and it’s just so hard to get started =S This is just “kacang” compared to that Singapore-Cambridge A level course which is like, erm… totally insane. Till now, I still don’t understand why they just want to torture (they call it stretch) students like that. Cambridge A levels doesn’t do that to students anywhere else in the world. Okay, if I can do that, of course I can take this step and do this easily.
It’s just a transition, I believe. Out here in the real world, stuffs and things that you learn will be not quite the same, or very different, rather, from the things u learn in school and college. Yeah, it’s a different stage of life. And I guess I’m getting a preview of it now. Well, that makes me realise that, hey, I’m a big boy now. Yeah. And I think things differently. In a mature way, I believe. I tend to see things differently from the way I used to when I was years younger. Yes, I do realise that. When I’m talking with friends, watching something, or even when I just sit alone and think about things, the way I think is just so different than before, for the better of course =)
Well, it’s gonna be “big boy” business from now on. That doesn’t mean the things that we’ve gone through in the past are just crap. Nope. We continue by refining the things we did in the past. And I’m getting a hang of it.
It is these little steps that we take which make us a greater person in life, which is especially important for a guy, I think ;)
♥ No greater love than this.2 x 8:58 PM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
I always appreciate friends who share songs with me. Thanks a lot to you guys.
So Close. It’s playing now. A song from the movie – Enchanted.
A nice movie, which, I believe, left many thoughts in the minds of the audiences, including me after the show.
I love to play this very song on my Nokia E65, music player and also while driving. It just gives me this very special feeling to me whenever I listen to it. I even play it on repeat mode while I’m on the wheel, sometimes.
Remember that time when you were just so close to something, someone but… just didn’t turn towards that happy end? Let’s face it, it happens sometimes. But why? We ourselves may or may not know the answer. And how many times were we just so close, but still said our goodbyes to that happy end?
You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far
We want our happy ends, you know it, but sometimes, we just walk away from it. You saw a chance there, which you always longed for and should take it, but turned away from it. Sounds familiar to most of us, doesn’t it? Why didn’t we grab that very opportunity, when things were just so close, so close… Think of it…
There can be a time when you decided to let go or turn away from the happy end or even not walk towards it, just because you love a person too much. It's true. You'll agree if we've walked thru the same path before. Never mind if it doesn't make sense to some, but sooner or later, it will.
And this song just makes me, and maybe most of us, to think back of how close we were to reaching that happy end.
...so close and still, so far.
♥ No greater love than this.7 x 5:14 PM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Well well well… I’m on my way to be the successful businessman that I dream of! Hahas. Okays, maybe at the starting point only. Hehe… because I got to sit for this entry test first to become an agent of the company. And guess what? I have two BIG books to read through =S Congratulate me.
My mum will help me with it actually =) With that business, of course, and obviously not the studying. If you want something, you’ve got to put effort into it. Hmm… something I heard of earlier in the day. Yeah, my dad was telling that to my youngest bro. Well, apparently he’s like super excited with his new school and the choice of his CCA. Was I like this before, I wonder. This enthusiastic for school. I think I was. The perfect mirror of my past.
I haven’t been touching any books since studying for A levels. TWO full months like I said. Then now comes two big books for me to study. Haih… my eyes automatically go @_@ everytime I pick them up. Okay okay, there’s got to be a start to everything. I’m telling myself that. And at the end of the day, the harvest will be abundant. Go ricky, you can do it!!
Dad just talked about careers and stuffs over dinner just now, and many times before. My dad, hahas… loves to talk about many theories in life and whatever that comes to his mind. Well, he makes a lot of sense in his words most of the time, a friend told me so. And honestly, he does. But, sometimes, he can go on and on and on till he’s repeating the same point all over again. Hahas. And I’m just too kind to interrupt because I’m too kind to do so for all he has done for me =) But don’t worry dad, I do listen.
How does working actually feel like? At this point of time, working seem pretty cool to me. You know, going to work in the day and hanging out at night or during the weekends with friends and colleagues. I always have this dream that when I get to work, I can buy this, this and this without feeling guilty as I wont be spending my parents hard earned money. It’s like a long list of things awaits me when I get my first job. Whee…
Come on, give me my job soon so that I can live my dream. Hahs.
♥ No greater love than this.1 x 11:24 PM
Monday, January 21, 2008
whooshh!!! 3 days 2 nights at Penang was really great great great great great!! Every hard work we put into the planning of this trip paid off really well. Great job everyone!! =)
It’s really fun to see how we navigate ourselves thru Penang by using the many maps we grabbed from the airport ;) We’re super duper good at it, I tell you. Hahas. We brought ourselves from one place to another, form the South to the North, East to West. Yes. We really did.
First day was the checking in of hotel. We were given a presidential suite! Haha.. well, sort of. It was B-I-G. With a mere 150 ringgit, it’s definitely worth the money. You know, we're still like kids. Hahs. Jumped on the bed, played pillow fight etc etc… So, the whole room looked like it was run over by a tornado or something just minutes after our arrival. Hmm… are we childish? Nope nope. We’re just young at heart! Yup.
Have been eating a lot a lot in Penang. Savoured almost all the good food there. Despite the sore throat I’m having, I still eat whatever that I can get. Hehe… Well, seems that I’ll have to buff up a bit after returning from the trip. Don’t forget your yogas too, my friends. Haha… I don’t really think I changed much but I just feel guilty. Lets work ourselves back into shape for the coming new year!! Then we can go eat some more good food soon. Melacca, maybe? Heh…
Too much to say about the trip, really. My brain is still taking its time to compile all the great memories we had.
Photoshooting on the plane. Hahas.
FIVE SECONDS before crossing the street while waiting for the lights to turn green!!! Crazy people, i know =P
After returning from the trip, I believe all of us fall flat on the bed right away. Too tired to do anything, and even to remove my lens. So, I slept for a few hours with my lens on. Life’s back to normal, I told myself. There’s always an end to a great time. Yup. That’s only when we tend to realise how great the trip is, like a big family, looking after one another. It has been 7++ years since fate brought us together, though separated away by land and oceans, it’s really heart warming to see how great our bonds are =)
It’s 22nd jan. 2 full months of holidaying after my A levels and still enjoying it. That’s the way man!!! Haha… keep it up.
♥ No greater love than this.7 x 11:51 PM
Friday, January 18, 2008
One of the things I always do. Get myself thinking about the memories we shared back here... And here's a compilation of flashbacks in my mind.
...Time flies. And we're flying off to Penang tomorrow!! Penang, Here we come =)
♥ No greater love than this.7 x 6:47 PM
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Phones, phones, phones… they are all over my house now. So now with one cordless phone or a normal phone at almost every corner, it’s like a surround sound system every time someone calls my house. Hahas.
Just a day ago, everything was totally the opposite. We have two fixed line numbers but only one phone. So every time when I wanna talk in the room, I have to detach that phone from the living room and carry it to the room. Two different lines, but only one can be used at any point of time. Yeah, weird. But now… whoosh, a cordless phone is just an arm’s length away. And right in front of me is just two phones with just about 30cm apart.
I gave my mum a suggestion that we can make internal calls around the house with that “yeah, right” kind of tone. Oh, she was well amused by that function. We don’t live in a palace you know but to her she thinks it pretty useful and will be all the more useful after we move into our bigger house. My bro suggested placing one in the toilet. Good thing it’s still the voice call era, and not video calls.
Okay, I know. Very often we don’t get to appreciate what we have around us, especially when in abundance. Phones in my case. People rarely realize how important or how fortunate something or someone is to them until they lose it. Many of such thoughts appear to me very often in a situation as my mind wanders away. My mum’s friend who is very close to my age came back from a trip in China told me that we are really fortunate here to have cars. “Really? Try driving them chauffeuring people around every day and see!” I thought. But what she said was quite true as we get to go everywhere we want by simply starting the engines and parking the car at our destination. No need to think about anything. A friend said this “do you think we can still go mamak this often and hanging out till ultra late after we leave for our studies again?” The obvious answer is NO. Away from home without cars, I long for them. Waiting for MRTs and buses especially are a plain waste of time and distresses the mind and body. And why now, I don’t find myself appreciating them? I should.
Many times, when you have it, you rarely treasure it, until it’s gone. Why we find ourselves beating the lights, sometimes? Gambling with our life? Yes, because it’s something which we don’t seem to appreciate until we lose it. On a smaller scale, why many times you don’t find how important a person is to you until you lose his presence?
It’ll be great if we know how to appreciate these big and little things and not lose them in the first place. But sometimes, this is not the case, and it can be too late but not too late. And the last thing you will wanna do is to sit there and regret forever…
♥ No greater love than this.0 x 11:50 AM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Woke up late this morning. Mainly because I’m having a sore throat so I kept forcing myself back to sleep each time I opened my eyes. Good thing it really worked as it kept me in my dreams till half past eleven. I know this can be a small matter to some as they can sleep way beyond it. Oh wells, I’m not really good at sleeping I admit as I often find myself awake most of the time and sleeping only takes up a small part of my 24 hour cycle.
The next thing after I open my eyes, my mum came and told me she scheduled an appointment for me. What appointment? I wonder. Well, it’s something that helps rejuvenate the skin, face and body. The catch? Fetch her there. Hahs! It’s just a small matter. Driving her around and be her chauffeur has been my part time job here. Good thing is I can have the car all to myself every time after that to roam around town or do some visitation. So I got up, had my breakfast and a shower, and got on the wheel.
Hmm, I think I deserve it after dragging myself through so many years of studying. Like the days of having minimal sleep whether to mug for tests or just to school in time. Now I can finally slack at home for endless days to turn on the TV, play the piano, going out anytime. Unlike my brothers who still needs to go school early every morning. Ha… but hey, your big brother went through 12 years of study to earn himself this, ok. I’m sure you’ll have your time. So, do well in school first, bros =)
I’m proud of you guys.
I know studying in that independent school isn’t easy at all. I spent three challenging years there that made me who I am today. Mum and dad wants the same for you guys too. It’s really a place which will train you guys, stretch you beyond your abilities at your young age when it’s best. I still remember how hard I worked myself through. Don’t worry, because I didn’t feel a thing at all then, until I look back. So, have a great time there, really. I hope I already played a good example, as a big brother for you. Whatever I can achieve, you can do it too, maybe even better. I’m really proud to see how you guys have been following and excelling in your studies there.
It puts a smile on me to see how I was then by looking at you guys. Just like a live video of my past. Bittersweet.
♥ No greater love than this.2 x 11:30 AM
Monday, January 14, 2008
Blog is finally subject to some final refurbishing and touch up. I want to give my many thanks to the honourable designer, yorshee, who kindly gave her time for this. It’s really a great motivation for me to make up my mind to blog. Thankew!
Thank you loadddddds!! =) I owe you a drink...
Well, just had a 101 blog operation and maintainance crash course at starbucks. Like yorshee said, it’ll only take a while and a while only. Surprisingly, it took no more than 30 minutes. What a fast learner I am! Hahs. Okay, also because under the guidance of the experienced blogger. So, positive positive gives positive! =)
Eventually I had to leave early to get myself on the way to KL to listen to some unit trusts talk. Money making course!! Hahs. Nah, just to broaden my general knowledge. Yorshee asked what unit trusts are. I gave a laugh as I found it pretty ironic as she’ll be taking up some economics or commerce course in university but have no idea about unit trusts. Well, maybe after this talk I’ll be able to give her a good explanation on it. Heard my mum talking and explaining about it to her clients about it many times. Basically it’s just “making your money work as hard as you do”. It’s something worth doing rather than allowing your hard earned money or savings to slack in my bank account which only gives me a return of 0.025% interest.
Making your money work as hard as you do, a strategy which many people use, consciously and unconsciously. In simpler words, investment. It’s something good to work with. Nowadays, working hard alone is no longer enough to be successful. How far can the wage of a profession bring you? My dad asked. Yes definitely it will be enough, enough for to feed yourself and have a decent house in your mid 30s of 40s. The business world promises you a world of possibilities.
Sometimes, I do dream of myself working in the business world in my middle ages, connecting myself with the business world on the go. Just like now, typing on my IBM ThinkPad at the rear seat. Feels good. Difference is that I’m blogging now while I’ll be keeping tracking the stocks or supervising the operation an MNC right at my fingertips.
And that’s my dream.
♥ No greater love than this.1 x 5:25 PM
Celebrated my brother’s birthday at Kensington yesterday. It was a belated celebration for him though. The ambience was great. They were playing classics and I could recognise some of them. Then, the difficult part came in - the ordering of meals. It’s really hard to pick what we want from such a great variety of them. Normally, I would pick the chef’s recommended dishes but I don’t see any of them marked in the menu. As usual, we took our time as we all did a thorough analysis and debate on available dishes.
Following that was the camwhoring session. Of course, featuring the main person of the day – the birthday boy!
The upcoming birthday boy!
And also… the last birthday boy of the year who can’t wait any longer. haha…
boys. boys. boys... it's brotherhood.
It’s so much of a difference. Well, this brother is one year older now, that’s for sure. Balloons, party hats, birthday suit etc are no longer in his taste. Yeah, what he wants now are Nike /adidas soccer shoes, football and more upper class stuffs. Yup, now I realised how inflation takes place in the family’s economy. Usually at a higher rate or percentage than the national’s inflation rate. As kids grow older, hah! That’s when the rate goes rocketing into space. Well, of course I wouldn’t say that I’m not guilty of it.
This is like a norm in many families. Well, that’s because you and I are living in this ideal world. “Ideal world”, a word I just heard from a TV programme just now. Now, I know sometimes we wonder that our world we live in, and yes, I mean the surroundings and situation we are in, are really ideal. Distress, bitterness, stress, hurtings etc. But when I see the non ideal world out there, where there is civil war, and people who are dying… I don’t think that we are in a bad state any longer.
Blood diamond. I watched that movie but nope, I’m referring to a much more real case scenario which I saw on TV just now. Do we get our hands chopped off just like that when we refuse to be exploited or to work? Sometimes when we say we are used, by people around us, but when compared to the extent of the exploitation that the poor people are facing, I feel that we have to stand up again and stop embarrassing ourselves. Are we forced to live in run down houses, tents with HIV, Malaria and other life threatening diseases roaming among us? The list goes on.
Next time, think twice before calling the world we live in “non ideal”, just because we couldn’t get what we want.
♥ No greater love than this.2 x 1:15 PM
Saturday, January 12, 2008
This 15 year old stallion that I’m sitting on, I love it quite a lot. Though 15 years old this year, it often gives me this great feeling whenever I’m riding it. Smooth… Like a typical stallion. The older it is, the better it gets as it tends to understand the feelings of the owner over time. Been riding it for almost 2 years and it kinda complements or reacts to me perfectly well for every move and action I make. Great transmission. Yeah. It’s a manual. Gets into every gear smoothly with every shift I make. “You handle it with such ease”, some remarked. When driving a manual, that’s the only thing available to play with my skills, not to mention about automatic transmission nowadays. Hence, am I just good in this or whether this stallion has a good understanding of the driver, I wonder. It’s not new and there it doesn’t come with any “va-va-voom” technology. All it has that I’m sure of are 2 very basic pairs of wheels and a power steering. Well, of course when compared to the younger and newer specie at home, it is not as well in certain ways. As people age, there will definitely be some crankiness or whatever it is. The same logic applies. The one thing the new will definitely not beat the old – experience.
Even after 15 years, many of these stallions are still in production. Hence, it seems that this very stallion that I like has earned himself a good reputation.
And while I was driving along the streets, I got myself thinking. I’ve been meeting up many of my old friends and best buddies this holiday. Movies, shopping, talking, having breakfast, traveling etc etc... I don’t think we really have many of such times left. People are gradually leaving, one by one. And truly, this is very rare chance for the closest friends of mine to be at the same place together.
Old friends. At this mature age, what do you think about them? What are your feelings for them? My mum suddenly asked me one day. "Erm.. yes! i love them" i told myself. A question which I often ask myself too. I hear many views from various people. Some say they walk you through a certain phase of life, and move on. Meet them up for a cup of tea sometimes to catch up a bit when there’s time. Some say it’s advisable not to hold onto too tight because you’ll soon find them moving on. It’s like an old car, scraped after ten years. For practical sake. Old friends are like how this old stallion is to me. The longer the time we spent together, the more I love them. One thing old friends have – they understand you. And of course I’m talking about real friends. One them once wrote to me, “fly away, follow your dreams, but never forget the ones who tried to fly with you”. I seriously love you guys who walked me thru everything. Happy times, sad times, difficult times… No matter how long we’ve walked together, and no matter where we ended up, either at the top of the hill or the valley, one thing I know is that we grabbed each others hand and held onto each other once to get ourselves to have the right momentum, the right velocity and obtain the right air lift to open our wings and fly.
Are you flying and yet leaving something, someone behind? Think again...
